For Those Who Have Stayed By Erin Marshall @ TWLOHA

"I will be the first to admit that I am not easy to spend time with.It’s exhausting and frustrating for me, and I imagine it is equally as frustrating for you.I become irritable at the drop of a hat.I’m controlling. It sucks having incredibly limited control of my mind and the physical manifestations of my anxiety. To compensate, I crave whatever control I can get. Staying on schedule and having a routine is important because it provides me with something that I can count on.I may present as clingy or dependent to some of you, requesting your constant presence while going to the grocery store or the post office. Please know this is because I trust you to help me tackle a task that seems too daunting to do on my own. I apologize too often, convinced that even the simplest inconveniences are my fault. Please don’t get annoyed.I’m indecisive to the extreme. The fear of making the wrong decision means that the odds of ever getting a straightforward answer from me are likely zero. Please, if making me choose, at least limit it to two choices.I believe that everyone who puts up with me secretly hates me or finds me annoying. Please don’t take offense. I have the tendency to push people away. I often passive aggressively vocalize and push my frustrations with limitations onto those around me who are living a ‘normal’ life. It’s merely an expression of jealousy of the freedom you have. It has nothing to do with you. It is a poor coping mechanism that I unfortunately use to conceal what I consider to be a personal weakness. Please don’t take it personally.
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[Pic:] "She loves him because.... && and then there is this crazy b*tch." - super hero/villain couples

Placebo - Scene Of The Crime

"I think the song is about a story between two individuals who are trying to find the way to love, through sex. They want to meet each other, so they play a game of signs and hidden emotions. But they're discovering that sex, can create something meaningful between them, but also, can destroy the expectations they had when they met for the first time.... The Scene of the crime."
fogliason @songmeanings

"Love me like I'm not broken and stay with me until the galaxy cracks"

I'm the type of person that likes to be re-assured every so often about how you feel about me..."

"You made it possible for me to climax without porn."

Why I will never  love or want anyone else but "him"

Original

"When U lowkey heartbroken"

Post by Nicholas Delahose.

The song this is from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5cm8-d1BFU A$AP MOB - Hella Hoe

"If I tell you I need you, do not take it lightly...."

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[Pic] "Have you ever been so wildly attracted to someone you could feel it actually driving you insane"

Kat Dahlia - The High

"You made your promises

I held on believing in all of them

Loves timeless, that's what you said

So whys your past coming back for its revenge?

My arms, yeah they're reaching for stars

But they're covered in scars

Oh baby you're the beating of my heart

Yeah your touch left a mark

I'm no light, I'm no dark

Oh baby you're the most important high

Eminem's songs about Kim/ what is Chaos Manufacture?

Love this song, but then again i'm am creating a Chaos Manufacture. I do have thoughts of being in an abusive relationships just because the Chaos Manufacture is apart of HPD. I live it through Eminem's harsh songs about Kim instead of going out and getting into a abusive relationship for real.

"I Love You More" lyrics and meaning @ Genius

"Crazy In Love" lyrics and meaning @ Genius

"Kim" 

Love The Way You Lie parts 1 & 2

Why I have thoughts of being in an abusive relationship/ Chaos manifacture

I'm am creating a Chaos Manufacture. I do have thoughts of being in an abusive relationships just because the Chaos Manufacture is apart of HPD. I live it through  harsh songs.,movies,artwork,etc. about abuse instead of going out and getting into a abusive relationship for real.
I wish my boyfriend would beat me and hurt me without me asking; however, that is dangerous and harmful so I do the best I can to be in a controlled environment.


There is also BDSM

and using Plushies to act out those fantasies and desires

Remember when that woman said that if someone loves you they beat you. That is how I feel sometimes, but I know it's very dangerous to be in an uncontrolled abusive relationship. I also know it'snot true, but a part of me wants to be in an abusive relationship because of the attention I would get and because of the CF (see above) it would create. I think I love the thrill and adrenaline of it and I think I have a masochistic/sadistic side to me. I ACT these fantasies and delusions out with my boyfriend. It gives me the same thrill and rush while maintaining control of the situation.
Use your head and really understand where your desires and needs are coming from. Recognize when you want chaos in a relationship just to get that attention,rush,etc and find some other healthy way to get it.

Lana Del Rey - Serial Killer

This specks to me because all the attention I want from others is on the line because now I found someone I really want to spend the rest of my life with. Therefore, I am a "serial killer," but I love him a little too much to only want his attention. I want his heart, not just his attention which is different from all the other people whose attention I wanted.

"[Verse 1]
Wish I may, wish I might
Find my one true love tonight
Do you think that it could be you?

"I honestly don't give a f*kk about her..She leans in for a kiss you get the f*k up and walk away..."

I need to try to trust more..

All you really need is someone who sees the psycho you are & likes you anyway

[Pic] "When you throwing random mood swings at your man, but he's handling them real well."

[Pic:] "When you thought you lost him cause you was acting crazy but then he messages you."

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"You'll always be mine...I'll look for you first in my next life."

See, I'm not cold hearted and I do feel love.

"she built her walls very high...."

Credit (I love these poems)

Do HPD's really love? @ PsychCentral

Of course we do!!!  I, of course, experience wanting others after I get into a relationship.However, I feel a person should know his or her self. I have stayed away from relationships for that reason. Now,I am with someone who understands me, and I feel I can open up to and I wouldn't trade that for anything.I recognize the times when I feel I want attention from other guys and girls and I know that is just a part of my HPD not because I actually want those other people.I know that if I broke up with him, I would get with someone else and not want them a week later,unlike with him.I know I want to spend the rest of my life with my partner so why would I sacrifice that for someone else who I am not going to want in a week anyway?