[Pic:] "I want to die a lovely death"

{pic:] Nobody cares unless you're pretty or dying

Brooke Candy - Happy Days

"I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not because I was talented or even beautiful, but because...." - Marilyn Monroe

[Pic:]*gets shot or stabbed...* "I can't die like this... "*puts on lipstick*

Credit:

Superficial

Marilyn Manson - Lamb of God

"The camera will make you god
that's how Jack became sainted

If you die when there's no one watching
and your ratings drop and you're forgotten
if they kill you on their TV
you're a martyr and a lamb of god"


@ Genius

I Don't Know What To Do... uploaded by Drew Disaster

I feel this way alot, like I am going to be unwanted if I am not perfect </3

Practice Wisdom: Differentiating Borderline and Histrionic Personalities

"My supervisor suggests that these different driving forces manifest in the intent behind the client's "dramatic, emotional, or erratic" behavior. Specifically, it is more characteristically erratic in BPD - the emotionality is not typically planned or intended, but the result of the client feeling like s/he is out of control, or even dissolving. In contrast, the behavior seems more instrumental (i.e., goal directed) in HPD - it is in service of gratifying the need for attention, with more calculation as to the effect the behavior will have on others. Thus, clients with BPD may be much more likely to experience unintended effects of their behavior, but still be unable to choose more adaptive behavior. My supervisors suspected that our client had HPD because she seemed more in control and calculating in her behavior than one would expect from BPD."

See entire article @ Practice Wisdom

​Personalities and fears

@WLI

Check out Hannah Vancouverr's Youtube channel

*Note I don't know if she has BPD or not, but I'm placing in in BPD categories because people who suffer from BPD and HPD suffer from horrible, crippling depression.

"I'm currently trying to help people with the tough things in life related to mental health and such. My channel is here for support and I just want to help people! I used to do vlogs so if you go back further on my channel you can view those. n.n Now I'm trying to make videos about the things I've struggled with in hopes that I can help people going through the same things. Feel free to contact me anytime and subscribe for more videos!  (I consider my channel to have a general trigger warning on it due to the topics discussed)"
Check out Hannah Vancouverr's Youtube channel

Illusion of Bias - YouTube

For me, the "tumor" is emotions and feelings and my identity and what I am good at.
and this is how I feel when i don't know myself.
Not sure if that is what the maker intended.

The 'Please Love Me' Dynamic - Teal Swan

For Those Who Have Stayed By Erin Marshall @ TWLOHA

"I will be the first to admit that I am not easy to spend time with.It’s exhausting and frustrating for me, and I imagine it is equally as frustrating for you.I become irritable at the drop of a hat.I’m controlling. It sucks having incredibly limited control of my mind and the physical manifestations of my anxiety. To compensate, I crave whatever control I can get. Staying on schedule and having a routine is important because it provides me with something that I can count on.I may present as clingy or dependent to some of you, requesting your constant presence while going to the grocery store or the post office. Please know this is because I trust you to help me tackle a task that seems too daunting to do on my own. I apologize too often, convinced that even the simplest inconveniences are my fault. Please don’t get annoyed.I’m indecisive to the extreme. The fear of making the wrong decision means that the odds of ever getting a straightforward answer from me are likely zero. Please, if making me choose, at least limit it to two choices.I believe that everyone who puts up with me secretly hates me or finds me annoying. Please don’t take offense. I have the tendency to push people away. I often passive aggressively vocalize and push my frustrations with limitations onto those around me who are living a ‘normal’ life. It’s merely an expression of jealousy of the freedom you have. It has nothing to do with you. It is a poor coping mechanism that I unfortunately use to conceal what I consider to be a personal weakness. Please don’t take it personally.
See more @ TWLOHA

[Pic:] Atelophobia: the fear of imperfection. The fear of never being good enough.

[Pic:] When you suffer from depression. "What people think I feel vs what I actually feel"

 *not mine*

[pic] Past trama - current relationship.triggered. Numb.Rage. Tired out. Suicidal. Unresolved grief.

[Pic] Fact: BPD doesn't = sociopath from BPD Beautiful

Check out BPD Beautiful, Borderline Personality Disorder's FB page

They have really good pics, and stuff.

"Just another girl with who suffers from BPD and knows way too much about it. Can you relate? We are beautiful in our own way ♥, Break the stigma"

BPD Beautiful, Borderline Personality Disorder

Check out their picture album <3

Check out Living with BPD blog

good blog, click here to check it out

[Pic:] "She loves him because.... && and then there is this crazy b*tch." - super hero/villain couples